My So-Called Friends

I've met hundreds or i should say thousands of people in my 23 years of living. Some of them I would call them as strangers, i've seen that but I never talk with them.. Lol... What I mean is the people i met on the public places. Stranger is just a friend we haven't meet and haven't got the time to know each other, right? Each of them have different personality for sure. None of them I could call as a 'True Friend' i would never say i'm somebody's true friend, i might be their best friend but i don't think i'm in a position to say that. Let them judge. This is just merely my opinion. So... During my kindergarten, primary school and secondary school, I don't have so many friends. I was quiet at that time and i'm not a type of girl who would start the conversation. I'm not that attractive, so nobody pays attention at me, that was what i was thinking that time. Silly me! Everybody have their own charm, you just gotta have a self confident in yourself. Okay, let's not talk about myself at this moment.... It's quite strange but during my kindergarten n my primary school, i made friend with the most 'naughty' girl in the school. i'll give her a name in an initial 'S'. I dunno what i was thinking at that time. My mum scolded me everytime I went to her home because she was afraid that S might influence me and I will be naughty. Since I moved to Malaysia, i haven't contact her till then. Couple of years ago, she called me and i'm amazed that she still has my phone number. She called me because she saw me standing outside while she was on the road driving. After that, i still haven't get a chance to contact her, but now we're reunited again thru facebook. She is married with one child, but her bad image still carries in her. I heard that her mil n fil doesn't like her because they feel that S wants their money. wow~ bad reputation ey?

Another friend of mine with an initial D. I got to know her during primary 5 or 6, i can't recall. I would state her as my best friend cause she is the one that always makes me laugh. We didn't keep in touch that frequently, so whenever I meet her I will be extremely happy. She didn't know much about my personal life, so did I? I keep trying my best to keep in touch with her, but she won't reply my sms. She said she is busy and i'm cool with it. Before I go to sg, i will ask her on what she needs so i can bring it for her. When she came to pekanbaru for a holiday, she didn't even call. Of course I'm dissapointed but I can't get mad at her. You expect for it, and then you'll get dissapointed. What i need is to accept it. That's the way she is, nobody's perfect. Even I, i dun think I’m good enough to be a good friend.

The other one is someone that I would share my stories with, good stories, a lame stories, she would listen to it. But she is way too stubborn and she didn't realize it at all. I have trouble in telling her to keep her head cool. I tried to give her a suggestion, but she wouldn't take it. What she need is happiness, but she's heading to the wrong way. I care for her but she always think she is right. She wants to have a 'rich' husband. She wants to be in the upper society. Everybody wants to live a good life... don't we? Why would you compare urself with ur other 'rich' friends? Are you jealous with them cause they don't have to work and you need to get ur butt off the bed and go to work everyday? You said that urself is weak and won't be able to carry the workload and will be sick? Come on! Its ur own life, you gotta earn something and make a living by urself. Do not compare urself with those who are loaded. You never try but you always give up. I know you would say 'you do not know how i feel' 'words speak louder than actions in this case'. Sorry to say this, but Better luck next life! Pray that you will be born rich and loved. I know i'm being so mean right now, so forgive me.

Next, my friend i got to know from my secondary school in Pekanbaru. At first, she is lovable and caring. She always ask my opinion about fashions, and I feel like I’m her free personal stylist, on the other hand I’m glad that she think I have a great fashion taste… lol. But the more you know her; u'll sense her to become cunning. She might not realize that I would judge her so. I love to pretend dumb at a time and I could see it coming. Lol... but i'm still keeping her as my friend... Whenever she needs me to do her a favour, she won't even mention the word 'please' or ‘thank u’. It doesn't happen once, but all the time...
As I said, accept the way people are... But I have my limit. I am not that DUMB... Lol... Just make sure you know how to handle it.

She gets jealous easily and I could see it clearly through her face. Call her “A”. I didn’t mean to show off, but sometimes when I tell her fascinating stories about my life, she would always reply me back to show that she is greater than me … geez. She even loves to copy my style in dressing up, but she won’t admit! >.<

Okay enough talk about my girl-friends. There are still many of them and it will take pages to write. Haha…. I’m not trying to make a mischief here. That is why I’m not putting their real name in here though I know they won’t be reading my blog cause I’ve never given them the link.

I’m just an observer =P
One reason why I didn’t talk much with the people I just met is because I wanna see their movement and their behavior first. It’s normal when people say I’m quiet when I first met them. Hehe, this is me and this is who I am. Cheers people! =)